First Doctor Visit.

So that next Monday Brittany calls to make an appointment with a new doctor here in town. We had not allowed ourselves to talk to anyone about this until we had confirmed our results with a doctor. Keeping count? That will now be the 5th pregnancy test that Brittany had taken, that's right Sunday afternoon I made her take another one. So while I was driving home from work to go to the visit with Brittany, my mind just kept racing about all the things about having a baby that I didn't know. I was listening to this CD that Brittany had made of all of these real mellow music, couple that with the racing mind and it's safe to say that I was a wreck. We met at home and were about to leave, when I thought about the fact that we could not leave my car in the driveway because both my Grandmother and Mother go by our house almost every afternoon and if they saw my car they would call and ask why I was at home. So we both drove over to the doctors office. As we walk in, I'm still a nervous wreck and as most of you know, when I get nervous I start making jokes....bad jokes! Brittany was very gracious with me, because I had to have been very annoying with all the joking.

As Brittany started filling out the mountain of paperwork, I still could not get my head wrapped around why we were here. I kept trying to answer the questions on the forms for her. Any family history of asthma? Diabetes? Allergies? "Yes, Yes, Yes", I said.

It then occured to me that the doctors office did not care if MY family had any history with these maladies, they only cared about the patient and the tiny embryo inside her.

It became clear to me at that point what my job was in this whole thing. My job here is support Brittany and do everything I can to protect her.

Knowing this did not stop the jokes.....the bad jokes!

As we went back into the exam room, they had more health questions. And explained to us what would happen today. Brittany and I went into the first visit really just expecting them to do another pregnancy test. Since we knew so early we did not expect the full exam....but the full exam we got! Let me tell you guys, you have not experienced anything until you have been present as your wife got a complete physical exam....TRUST ME!

As the exam ended the doctor turned and told us that she always does an ultrasound on the first visit. I was very excited to hear this, however she did warn us that it may be too early to really see anything.

As the ultrasound began something incredible happened. Amid all the awkwardness and bad jokes on a tiny black and white TV screen... my life changed.

As the image moved on the screen, there it was a tiny black speck about the size of a bean (hence our blog name). It was really nothing and everything at the same time, I was floored. More bad jokes followed!

As Brittany got dressed and I sat in the room, the only thing I could think to do was the thank God for trusting us with this gift.

It was weird walking out of the office, I already felt different. I could already feel the responsibility building, but was not worried about it at all. I was way too excited to worry.

Next up was the tell the family.....